It’s funny, I have a few blogs I check in with on a regular basis. Some are highly personal, others are very ministry-oriented. I don’t really get into searching out blogs yet, though I may over time as I see links from other people’s blogs. But who has that much time in the day? I am still working on figuring out my “voice” for this one. I’m not sure if I want it to be purely ministry-related, where I put a link on the church website and invite members to read it. At the same time, I don’t know that I want to focus just on personal stuff, because my life is just not that interesting. The personal ones I read are from people with kids, so of course they always have some interesting story, either related to making lemonade or losing teeth. Me, I write about buying a mattress and it makes me want to sleep!
This is the ongoing dilemma of my life, too. Where do I focus my time? Do I spend my days around church-related activities, or do I focus on home? And to be honest, what is it that I do with my time that makes a difference? I go in to work and do some prep for ministry and then groan over the state of my office, mostly a mess of papers. Then I go home and do laundry or cook, but none of these things feel like life to me. I get excited about teaching the faith, which I do mostly on Sundays or in brief conversations throughout the week. And I am always happy when my house is nice for my husband to come home to it, though unlike most wives I spend the bulk of my day next to him anyway.
All of this goes to the subject of vocation, of Christian calling. I am what God is making me to be. What I do is important, even if it feels mundane, because it is the task God has set for me to do today. This is a topic I have spent the greater part of my adult life wrestling with. I read books on the subject by the truckload, I wrote my master’s thesis on it, and I pray about it constantly. I have a strong desire to feel purpose in my actions (and no, I haven’t been able to finish The Purpose Driven Life). So that is my struggle with blogging, to come full-circle in this post. I want to know that my writing is not pointless babbling sent out into the void. Heck, I want to know that about my life, too.
bethany actually said:
Well, don’t feel it’s pointless, because I for one am really enjoying reading about your life now! It’s been years since we both have had time to write each other daily emails so it’s been great to be able to check in on you via blog–even your mattress musings. 😉
Do you ever write devotions anymore? I used to love your email devotions so much. I think you should consider writing a weekly devotion for this site!