I think that there is a fundamental problem with blogging. It’s very easy to only see your own world view and get continuous reinforcement of said view by people commenting, reading, etc. Yet I am becoming increasingly aware that my perspective is extremely limited. I received one of those “fill in the blank” things via email a while back, and the first one was “Four places I go often.” I could only think of two, church and the library. I spend most of my time at home, some of my time at church, and the rest divided among stores, library, and people’s homes, but that remainder is very small. Most of my perspective is influenced heavily by the same teachings I have always grown up with, those of the Lutheran Church-Missouri Synod. And while I don’t necessarily disagree with those teachings, I do struggle with the fact that I’m not getting out there and meeting new people along the way.
High school was easier. I was immersed in a culture wholly unlike my own. Even in college I had the opportunity to be stretched by others. I missed out on opportunities to witness, though, because I was often too weak to speak up about what I believed. I like to think that I’d be different now, but the truth is I find it easiest to speak up when I’m in “church mode.” After all, if I’m talking about God’s truth at church or with church members, even if they disagree with me, it’s much less intimidating. I’ve got stuff to back up what I’m saying that we ultimately agree upon. But to talk to people who begin by saying that the Bible is fictional is much more difficult. I’ve never been very good at that. Maybe it’s why I’ve cloistered myself in the world of the church. I married a pastor and trained to be a church worker, and if I don’t want to, I never have to remove myself from the “church comfort zone.” I avoid interacting with strangers as much as possible, whether it’s the person in line behind me at the store or the sales clerk offering to set up a fitting room or the construction workers we see daily in our still-developing townhome complex.
I’m not going to stop blogging any time soon, but I am going to start following some other blogs, maybe seek out some viewpoints that are different than my own. If any of you have suggestions, I’d love to hear them. This is an area I know God is challenging me in, to get back into the world. While we are told by Him to not be “of the world,” we still need to be “in the world.” I’ve been avoiding that for a long time now. Please pray for me in this, it’s scary to go out into the world.