I had no idea that God was at work leading me to write Tuesday’s post. Originally I wrote it because I was thinking about two things in particular, a dear friend who just had surgery and the good news we were sharing in the correct order with family, friends, etc. I found out over the weekend that I was pregnant. However, Wednesday I started to miscarry. So I needed those prayers more than I ever knew I would, and I thank all of you for sending them up for us. I don’t think I’ve wrapped my head around the details of this week yet – Travis was supposed to be gone all week at a conference, and I was supposed to fly out tomorrow to stay with the friend who had surgery, but all of those plans were changed. I had already altered my plans because she’s still in the hospital, and Travis came home Wednesday to be with me before we knew for sure what was happening, but God had His hand in taking care of us both through this.
I am trying to be thankful that we could finally get pregnant, and I have been thinking about this stuff a lot as I lay awake at night, but right now I’m tired and feeling pretty yucky and run down. Please keep praying, we’re very thankful for friends like all of you. I know I have more to share but it’s going to be a while before I can process all of this, the fears and anxieties, the sorrow, the joy, the pain of all of it. And I’m too drained physically by what’s happening to my body to deal with it right now.
Sometimes God leads us through these ways that we do not understand. Our prayers are that we can remember that He loves us, and that the fears and anxieties and pain are all something that He can take away when we ask and that will leave the joy of His love. It is that faith as a child, knowing how much our Father loves us.
That’s not meant to be a lecture or a sermon for you, Stephanie, just a reminder.
I am proud of you. I know this was hard to write. As you know I too share the pain. For many years we have struggled with getting pregnant. And this… Yes, it is good news, praise be to God, to know that we can get pregnant. But more than that, I want you to know that even if we never do… you mean the world to me. I can never thank God enough for the gift of you, my wife. I am glad I was able to come home from Chicago and praise God He worked that out. I would have walked if I had to! Because by your side is where I needed (and need) to be. You really do mean the world to me. I praise God for you and the unconditional love He shares with me through you. You are such a role model of faith to me and so many others. Thanks for being my wife. God is with us…He will get us through!
I just read your comment on SCL and laughed… it’s so funny the little false world that exists in Christian culture huh? I was definitely not cool at High School, partly because I didn’t care and maybe slightly because I played clarinet and did youth group dramas… but recently someone said to me in my church “oh but you would have been one of the cool kids at school wouldn’t you?” after I made a comment that you can usually tell who they were as adults.
Um… no…. so funny you would think that….
Also I just read your post here. So sorry to hear of your loss. I have endometriosis so I know I would think it was great if I could get pregnant at all, but it still doesn’t help you get through the longing and trying and heartbreak each month I’m sure. I’m not married and getting on in years so I wonder if I’ll even get the chance to try.
To my dear friend,
I prayed a bit this morning, and this is what I had to say to my friend Jesus….
“Thank you Jesus for our friends the Pittocks. From the moment we were born, you had a plan for the Pittocks to come into our lives, and Chris and I thank God for them. We are so blessed by their friendship and unconditional love. I think the reason it was so easy for me to drop everything to be with my friend, Stephanie, God is because – without a doubt – she would have ABSOLUTELY done the same for me. Thank you Lord Jesus for that perfect, and unconditional love. Amen”