Strangely I keep coming up against this word this year. I am filled with gratitude. A recent comment on a listserv brought it to my attention that the words for “grace” and “thanks” in several non-English languages are very close. So perhaps using the words “gratitude” or “grateful” fit better in English. Anyway, I have been filled with thankfulness this year. Thankfulness that I had my daughter. Gratitude that I got to hold her for four months. Joy that I never spent a single day of her life apart from her. Despite all of the profound sorrow we continue to feel (and will for years to come) I can’t help but give thanks. Since we celebrated thanksgiving last week, I wanted to make sure I shared this thought. And today’s devotion brought it to my attention again. I’d like to quote a segment, from the book Simply Sacred by Gary Thomas:”Sometimes, in God’s providence, certain pleasures may be closed to us…God says, in effect, ‘This is not for you, at least not now.’ We have to trust him to provide alternate pleasures–perhaps of an entirely different sort–that will sustain us in our trials. Feelings of entitlement feed anger; feelings of thankfulness swell our souls and can make us tear up with overflowing gratitude.” It’s so true. I’m thankful that Gary put into words what my heart has been telling me this year.
Yes, I’m double posting today, but I had to share it. Thanks for putting up with me!
I am glad that you are feeling gratitude. I know you still are hurting and will be for a long time but you sound much more positive.
Blessings,
Becky Rubke
Thank you so much for your comment on Amelia’s blog today! I do recall praying for you; Bethany is such a prayer warrior (love her!)
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Samantha is such a pretty name…Jonah to! We considered the name Jonah if Amelia had been a boy but decided against it because it sounded to similar to Noah (our son’s name). 😉
Please feel free to email me anytime. I have really come to rely on my BLM friends to vent to/grieve with…somethings are just to hard to put into words and it’s nice to talk to other women that “get it.”
Blessings,
Melissa (Amelia’s Mommy)