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Psalm 31:7-8

I will rejoice and be glad in your steadfast love,
because you have seen my affliction;
you have known the distress of my soul,
and you have not delivered me into the hand of the enemy;
you have set my feet in a broad place.

It’s been a rough week. Last night I was crying, once again, missing our little girl so much that I couldn’t sleep. And yet my heavenly Father reminds me again of His love for me through these verses. I will rejoice in His steadfast love. He has known my affliction and distress. And I am protected in the midst of it. God has not let me be taken captive by the enemy. There have been times over the past two years where I was so afraid that I would completely lose my mind, falling into some sort of semi-comatose state, or entering into an addiction, or separating entirely from reality. These are the ways the enemy tried to attack me in my weakness and vulnerability. But God in His mercy surrounded me with His angels.

This isn’t one of those stories – I haven’t actually seen an angel, at least not in a way that I knew it implicitly. But there have been moments in the night where God’s protection kept me sane. There have been people in my life who have served in angelic ways. Over and over God has shown me His love, His kindness, His protection. And He keeps guiding my steps on a path that is solid. I need that firm foundation right now, because without it I would stumble. I don’t think I could get back up again.

Some of my human “angels” have been with me for a long time – my husband, my family, my long-time friends. Others are newly part of my life, and I know it’s not coincidence that God brought them when I needed them most. Tonight I get to spend some time in a video conference with a group of them, something we scheduled over a month ago but I need so very much right now, today. That’s not a coincidence either.

Thank you God, for surrounding me with angels and people to keep me steady, and for helping me to keep my eyes on You!